re: a couple questions that probably only pertain to me, lots of rambling
@elexia thank you, for taking the time to help me understand and offering a potential solutioni've got contact with a therapist that's been helping me with other issues, i'll certainly have to bring it up next time we meet... which.. is probably the thought i should've had in the first place
and, thank you, again, for not just dismissing or ignoring me, i probably shouldn't have fallen apart like that to begin with